i feel

like if i died now, my life has been lived to its fullest.

of course i would like to pursue my goals and careers, but you know. it wouldn't bother me if i just died. i want to live and travel. and it makes me realize, really, NEVER take anything for granted.

just, i hope everyone will realize that sometime someday.
it's never too late to learn something new.

- CLEEEEE

so far

i know i wrote yesterday, but after reading jung's & sunena's blogs, it got me thinking too. & that's what blogs are for. sometimes they relieve me of stress and i could go on and on. i felt overloaded last week. there was just soo much to do. but i like how junior year is shaping up. i mean, it's supposed to be the hardest and it is actually. but i'm glad that i'm getting something out of it.
i feel a bit different , like i've gone through a lot more. i guess i kind of have. there are some things that i help friends out with. & it's gooooood.
i like junior year so far, definitely. & like i said before, i feel different in a sense. you can laugh, but there are some things, where i feel like i've matured a bit. yeah, laugh.
but just, i've been a little more apprehensive & on guard. becuase even though it's going good. there's just one thing bothering me.

why do boys do the things they do ? they do one thing, while their minds are thinking another. it's just hard for us girls to understand. you call us girls complicated. but have you stopped to think that maybe your actions are speaking louder than words ? is that the way you want them to be ? if not, then don't go out of your way just to make that happen. girls over-analyze many times over silly little sentences. & i love how the boys don't even know it. but it does. sometimes even immediately and without thinking . please, boys; just control your actions for once & let your mouth do the talking. i don't want to have to go through that again.
which leads me to being on my guard. i don't want that to happen again.
i want to just live a life where it's easy and people can say what's on their minds.
you wonder how come i never have any drama.
well, dammmmmmn. maybe it's because i love the people i'm around & don't start something just because i'm bored. it just makes everyone else pity you, aaaaaaite ?
i love the people i've made friends with & i really hope they feel the same.
this year has been filled with ups and downs most definitely.
well, seriously, just at the beginning. HA. well, let's not go back.

since the beginning of 2009. i just hope to become more mature.
there are things i actually contemplate hard about now.
college, majors, minors, jobs. there's a load.
but i've begun to shape it up & i want to follow my guide.

posture to begin with. it's hard if you just start now. mannn, the back is sore from being straightt. but like i said, if you work hard enough, why wouldn't you get the thing you have been desiring & anticipating for ?

god bless.
- CLEEEEE

the shoppes

was fun! but not as much as it could have been. because obviously, they don't have a life. the whole mall closes at 8. how the heck are they supposed to get customers ?! well, they're lucky, becuase they still do -____-X but unfair. every time we got to the store, they closed the door ! ):
ehhhh, but after reading catherine jung's blogspot. i'm glad she had fun. & i'm sorry i couldn't go. i wanted to, of course . but anyways. we took videos for catherine jung. she already knows about them ! (:

hahaha, and me and wu's tag for you in our pictures (: <3 yeahh.
dude. so in the end, we went to chill in barnes & nobles. you should have heard what wu did! it was heckaaa funny! but i think you can hear it in the video. it was freaking funnnny! but yeah. there were couple of cute guys. & then we had to leave . bleeeeh. but i got a booook ! YES! agatha christie <3

we totally need another wujunglee bonding moment, am i right ?
exactly, until next timee. brother's home & it might get a little chaotic.

- CLEEEEE

before i start

homework, i will post something. it's been about a week or so ? yeahh. so yes, before i start homework, i just want to say one thing (;

let's have everyone hope with their life that catherine jung won't get any more sick than she already is and have her get better. wow O__O it feels like i'm talking about her like she's in the hospital or something.
i've taken a liking to different types of songs now. don't know why either. must have been surfing the radio stations. & i have a few presets. and i've taken a likingg. it's nice though. their songs are pretty deep. instead of all the hip hop talking about drugs, sex, and hooking up or something. well, i should say the lyrics are deep.

i walked home today from school o_o not far though. it takes about thirty minutes. but i think it's very relaxing. & when you get home, it feels sooooo nice. you just sit and rest your muscles a few and start on homework. no distractions or anything. haah. yeah, talking about distractions blogspot. i just kidding.
so brea mall w/ josh and catherine was hilarious. i was supposed to be at catherine's house, but i went to brea with them to get them sadies stuff. haha. and so, we're all good. going home. josh put his keys in his bag. and so, walked to his car. and put the bags in and closed the trunk.
then josh walks a bit, then says, 'wait, where are my keys ?' yuppp. he put it in his bag, which is now in the closed trunk -__-x talk about bad timing. soo, yeah. i had to tell my mom i went to brea to buy some dance stuff. my goooooodness i had an orange shirt. goooood times good times. i will never forget that. but, i don't blame josh <3 hahah.

i was in a good mood today (:

- CLEEEEE

sick

which i should NOT be. just a CONJESTIVE NOSE. that i think i got from catherine jung. thanks bunches -____- anyways, yeah. hmmmmmmm, what should our topic be ? i think it should be health.

LOL. no, i'm not a health freakkk. i'm just healthy most of the time. thank goodness. but it's been deteoriating. UGHHHH . you know what really hurts ?! when you use paper towel to rub your nose/blow your nose. because obviously, my chem AND english class doesn't believe in tissue ! :[ my nose hurts terribly. it feels red, but it's not. that's so not goood. & i like cannot breathe through my left nostril. it's soooooooo annoying.

& i'm hungry. thank goooodness for that one thing only girls get. you know why ?! because we lose weight after we get it. becuase we, or maybe me, sometimes, get PMS-y . & therefore , we get angry, which lets off some calories. but it's not the good way. but also, it feels like we're bloated! the whole time so, we, well i , don't eat . because i can't fill my stomach anymore.

well, i should be doing homework. i really do have a lot today. dannnng!

& yes, i agree with JUNG <3 get down to brea mall and find our way to Westminster Mall. everyone should go there at least once in their lifetime. i think it's a really pretty mall. well, anyways. i'm hungry =D
goooooodbye.

- CLEEEEE

first day

of march. i feel like it should be a good month.

yesterday, kathleen came over. & even though we see each other like almost everyday, we are still able to find things that we haven't talked about. ohhhhhh eww >_< style="font-style: italic;">someone said they would go to sadies with her (; & she won't stop laughing at random times -____- & all of you who think i'm totally chaotic and random ...

what should the topic of discussion be today ?
i sound like a college professor or something. 'good morning, class. today we will be learning about cellular biology & ways that molecules bond together to form different bonds and compounds.' hahahah. sad thing is, that's probably my major for college @_@

let's talk about that.
so, tell me, people. what college do you want to go to ?

me ? well, i prefer to go to UCI or FIDM <3 but yes, competition for design is harsh. so, that will probably be a minor. or i can do double major. whatever floats my boat during that time.
tell me, tell me. what do you want to do when you grow up ?