i am & what if`s

who am i ? i think i know who i am. but sometimes i do ponder.
boy, do i sound smart .
that's one thing no one believes. well, maybe they do, but they don't show it.
i used to be really smart.
but i then i moved to californya. where there is a hoard of smartbutt asians (; no offense.
i used to be a tomboy O_O
yeah i know, but then, i moved to californya.

don't get me wrong, of course i am hecka glad to have moved here. i met some of the greatest people i think i will ever meet. and that's saying something. i'm not even at the prime of my life yet, as someone has once told me. i don't think i'm capable of going back to the way i was. i do kinda miss it, but i don't think i would ever trade it for the world. but you know ?

sometimes i wonder, what if ?
what if i hadn't moved ?
what if i hadn't made the friends i had ?
what if i had done this another way ?
what if i had moved to somewhere else ?
what if i hadn't met the coolest people on earth ?
what if the world came to an end & i wasn't able to show love for the people that deserved it ?
what if i wasn't able to meet the people i have through others ?
what if i was actually confident ?
what if i was rich ?
what if i was poor ?
what if i was famous ?
what if i was a fob ?
i'm getting off topic, aren't i ? (; ooooops . but, seriously, have you not wondered, 'what if' also ?

that's what i thought. so i should be sleeping, but what if i don't finish my homework ?

i know the answer to that .
immmmmmmmmma get good grades.
PSYCH !

so fun (:

what's today ? oh yes, sunday the twentysecond. well yesterday was hecka funn ! ;D went skiing at Mountain High.

I thought it would be cold. But, of course, it's cali-FOR-NY-A . it's never cold -___- at least i didn't bring the big huge jacket that my mom told me to bring. because that would have just been embarrassing. i wish i was lying, but i'm not.

I went with church people. Heckofa lotta fun . seriously. There was soo much traffic though! it was soo crazy. What was supposed to take twenty minutes, took us about an hour and a half O_O . literally [ my brother was watching the time ] .

but it was soooooooo much fun ! i haven't gone skiing in the longest time ever. the last time was when i was still in Massachusetts. So, five to six years ... O_O that's quite a while ! but it was funn. HAHAHAHAHAHA. and i went really fast and since i couldn't stop ... i seriously was like whatever. and fell . yeah. i was seriously going hecka fast and i decided to fall. yeahhh. it didn't really hurt though. the only fascinating thing was that my body was here and the poles were like five feet away -____- you have to get diagonals down ! ouch. ahah. so i'm sore today. but at least everyone else is too. my brother says he is too, but he doesn't show it & who believes him anyway ? no one, that's right (;

my feet hurt. those dang boot things hurt when you put them on ):
BUT I'M GOING BACK NO MATTER WHAT. I DON'T CARE. I GO BACK ! IT WAS HECKA FUNN. & I WANT TO LEARN TO SNOWBOARD. SERIOUSLY. LOOKS LESS PAINFUL.

hmmmm. eyeahhhhh. ate food today. good food (:
math is buggin` .
chinese is retarded .
good night . sweet dreams all of you (:

CLEEEEE.

sleeping

sleeping. haha. what i should be doing. but, i had to do something for my madre. therefore, still not in bed. and instead, on blogspot . you know, i always seem to think these things are pointless. i have nothing to say right now. i suppose. ahha (: i've been in a good mood for these past few days. no idea why. but i've also been very mean. usually late at night and early in the morning. hmm, yes . i remember.

i kinda went all out mean on kathleen ho. it really wasn't my fault [ & i apologize ] . i don't know. i just wasn't feeling all that well. emotionally. i feel like i need to sleep more. but you know. there aren't enough hours in the day to finish what you need to do. and it sucks because with the start of another day, you need energy. energy which you don't have because you didn't sleep at all last night. well, i really should get going. this was kinda relaxing.

i suppose. catherine jung played two tricks on me. both within five minutes -___- and i think it was less than that. goshhh. anyways, yesssss. bed sounds good right about now.

tata.

CLEEEEE

valentine's day -___-

i haven't done a blog in the longest time ever. but whatever.
well, eyeahhh. hmmmm.

the twilight movie was awesome. just following up on my last entry. which was a very long while ago. it was pretty good, but there were some things that could have been better.

it's valentine's day. you should all go and share it with the one you love. if you're married, if you're together, or even if you want to be together. don't let anything stop you on this great day. PLUS, the sun is shining. in DB, t's been raining and it's been raining hardd. so it's nice to see the sun again.

even if you don't have a valentine, happy single-awareness day to you all ! <3 find someone to share the love, best friend, family, or whatever. a homeless person. i don't know. jk about the homeless person. because you don't really know if they are homeless or not. so yeahhh, don't get tricked by them.

anyways. i would like to make a dress. and i cannot wait to just get up and go to college. so then i can fimally go to freaking fashion school. i can't wait to freaking learn how to do all those things. well, i need to go eat some 'denero' as my bestieWU says all the time (;