i am & what if`s

who am i ? i think i know who i am. but sometimes i do ponder.
boy, do i sound smart .
that's one thing no one believes. well, maybe they do, but they don't show it.
i used to be really smart.
but i then i moved to californya. where there is a hoard of smartbutt asians (; no offense.
i used to be a tomboy O_O
yeah i know, but then, i moved to californya.

don't get me wrong, of course i am hecka glad to have moved here. i met some of the greatest people i think i will ever meet. and that's saying something. i'm not even at the prime of my life yet, as someone has once told me. i don't think i'm capable of going back to the way i was. i do kinda miss it, but i don't think i would ever trade it for the world. but you know ?

sometimes i wonder, what if ?
what if i hadn't moved ?
what if i hadn't made the friends i had ?
what if i had done this another way ?
what if i had moved to somewhere else ?
what if i hadn't met the coolest people on earth ?
what if the world came to an end & i wasn't able to show love for the people that deserved it ?
what if i wasn't able to meet the people i have through others ?
what if i was actually confident ?
what if i was rich ?
what if i was poor ?
what if i was famous ?
what if i was a fob ?
i'm getting off topic, aren't i ? (; ooooops . but, seriously, have you not wondered, 'what if' also ?

that's what i thought. so i should be sleeping, but what if i don't finish my homework ?

i know the answer to that .
immmmmmmmmma get good grades.
PSYCH !