so far

i know i wrote yesterday, but after reading jung's & sunena's blogs, it got me thinking too. & that's what blogs are for. sometimes they relieve me of stress and i could go on and on. i felt overloaded last week. there was just soo much to do. but i like how junior year is shaping up. i mean, it's supposed to be the hardest and it is actually. but i'm glad that i'm getting something out of it.
i feel a bit different , like i've gone through a lot more. i guess i kind of have. there are some things that i help friends out with. & it's gooooood.
i like junior year so far, definitely. & like i said before, i feel different in a sense. you can laugh, but there are some things, where i feel like i've matured a bit. yeah, laugh.
but just, i've been a little more apprehensive & on guard. becuase even though it's going good. there's just one thing bothering me.

why do boys do the things they do ? they do one thing, while their minds are thinking another. it's just hard for us girls to understand. you call us girls complicated. but have you stopped to think that maybe your actions are speaking louder than words ? is that the way you want them to be ? if not, then don't go out of your way just to make that happen. girls over-analyze many times over silly little sentences. & i love how the boys don't even know it. but it does. sometimes even immediately and without thinking . please, boys; just control your actions for once & let your mouth do the talking. i don't want to have to go through that again.
which leads me to being on my guard. i don't want that to happen again.
i want to just live a life where it's easy and people can say what's on their minds.
you wonder how come i never have any drama.
well, dammmmmmn. maybe it's because i love the people i'm around & don't start something just because i'm bored. it just makes everyone else pity you, aaaaaaite ?
i love the people i've made friends with & i really hope they feel the same.
this year has been filled with ups and downs most definitely.
well, seriously, just at the beginning. HA. well, let's not go back.

since the beginning of 2009. i just hope to become more mature.
there are things i actually contemplate hard about now.
college, majors, minors, jobs. there's a load.
but i've begun to shape it up & i want to follow my guide.

posture to begin with. it's hard if you just start now. mannn, the back is sore from being straightt. but like i said, if you work hard enough, why wouldn't you get the thing you have been desiring & anticipating for ?

god bless.
- CLEEEEE